Hoping and Praying for a Baby

Good News!!!

2009-04-09T15:47:00.000-07:00

I haven't been able to get on and post all week because my internet at home has been broke. It has been killing me. Its been a crazy/great week!! Sunday morning we got a BFP!!!!!!! I took like 5 tests just because I love seeing it say "pregnant". So Monday I called and went in and got my first beta which was 1,900, yes 1,900 on day 29 about 16 or 17 dpo. So all of tuesday I was freaking out that this was too high. My doc said it was high and it could be more than one. I am great with having twins, and have always kind of thought I would have twins but more than twins scares me just because I want them to be healthy. So we went in Wednesday for the second beta I was worried it was going to triple or more since my first was so high but I got the call this morning and it was 4,026 which is just a little more than double, the tests were like 50 hrs apart. This is the first time my beta's have actually double like they were supposed to and it is a GREAT feeling. They are still really high but after doing ALOT of researching online and reading message boards I feel better about it, I read about tons of people that had numbers this high and had 1 or 2 babies. I will be so happy with however many we end up with and I know it is all in God's plan. So anyways we go in April 20th (6w 1d) for a ultrasound and see what is going on in there! Until then I will just have to be patient. This might be the hardest 2ww yet!

Hard day

2009-03-26T15:14:00.000-07:00

I am having an extremly emotional/hard day. My best friend had her first baby today. I so excited for her and the little baby boy is precious and healthy! It has just brought up so many emotions, I was doing great this cycle being positive but today it really hit me that I should alreday have a baby that is 6 months old, or I should be about 20 weeks pregnant, but two miscarriages later I am still sitting here with no baby. :( My other really good friend is due any day so I will get to go through this emotional rollercoster again probably within the next week.

Also not helping the situation is the fact that I have NO idea if and when I ovulated? They gave me a trigger shot on CD 13 but my BBT is all over the place, It still hasn't really went up to my normal after ovulation range. One reason I think this could be is I started a new job on Monday morning, and I have to wake up at 5:30 instead of about 7:30. I know that temping at a different time even if it is as soon as you wake up can have an effect on the temp, so hopefully this is the case and my temps are just messed up becasue I have been taking them about 2 hours earlier than normal. We have been BDing about every other so hopefully we caught it if I did ovulate. I am going to try and stay really positive about this cycle and hope and pray for the best!!

CD 13 ultrasound

2009-03-20T08:36:00.000-07:00

Well I just left my cd 13 ultrasound appointment. Great news it looks like clomid worked, I had 4-5 good follicles (18-21mm)! My lining also looked good it was an 8. They gave me 1/2 of a dose of the HCG trigger shot, So now we just get to BD and see what happens. They told me to wait until 36 hours after the trigger to BD but everything I have read online says to do it at 12 and 36 hours. What do you guys think?

Clomid Update

2009-03-17T07:07:00.000-07:00

Well I took my last Clomid pill yesterday. I have had little to no side effects!!!! I was really worried about headaches, hot flashes, and moodiness all for nothing. I go in on Friday (CD 13) for an u/s to check on the follicles and maybe get a trigger shot. I am trying to stay positive and optimistic about this cycle. I will update Friday after my appointment.

I'm back!

2009-03-09T15:02:00.000-07:00

I have been so busy lately I have not had time to post. I have been to 2 baby showers for good friends in the past 2 weeks. I made it though but hopefully by the next baby shower I will be pregnant! AF showed up yesterday, it was a 34 day cycle. I thought she was never going to show up even though I knew I wasn't pregnant I took 3 tests last week just to make sure! All of the tests (chromosome analysis and blood clotting test) came back normal. I know this is good, but part of me wished they would find something wrong so we would have an explanation for the miscarriages. On the TTC front I am starting Clomid this cycle. This will be my first experience with Clomid so all of you that have experience with it please leave me comments on what to expect. I am taking 50 mg days 5-9. I will update later this week on how that going.

HSG Normal!

2009-02-10T07:25:00.001-08:00

Well I had my HSG this morning at 8:30. Everything was normal! I was pretty nervous and anxious about the procedure and everything I had read online. It wasn't too bad, but definantly uncomfortable and a little painful. I was cramping some for about 30 minutes but it seems to have died down a little, hopefully the worst is over. One annoying thing was the assistant that was helping with the procedure said afterward "Well it doesn't hurt as much as having a baby", and I was like Well... a baby would be great, I don't really care how much it hurts". I mean really who says that to someone who has had two miscarriages in the past year, seriously????

Tests

2009-02-05T07:37:00.000-08:00

I am going in this afternoon for a couple of blood tests to try and figure out if anything is causing the miscarriages:
1. genetic test on DH and I
2. blood clotting disorder test on me

I am also having and HSG next Tuesday, I am really nervous about this. If anyone has had one and has any tips for me I would really appreciate them!!

AF has arrived

2009-02-03T13:49:00.000-08:00

Well as you can see by the title AF showed up yesterday. This is the most excited I have ever been to see her. I am just glad that now she is here we can decide if we are going to do tests to figure out what, if anything has caused the miscarriages. I will keep you guys updated with what we decide to do this month.

Hallmark Movie and Ovulation

2009-01-23T12:43:00.000-08:00

Last night I watched a movie on the Hallmark channel, it was called "Expecting a Miracle". The movie was about a couple struggling with Infertilty. It wasn't the best movie I had ever seen, but it was pretty good. Has anyone else seen this?

On another note, I think I ovulated this week. We are not really "trying" this cycle, I want my body to get back to normal after the miscarriage. I decided not to use OPK's this month but decided to go ahead and chart my temps just to see if I would ovulate and my temp went up on Tuesday. I also had quite a bit EWCM on Sunday & Monday. I was not expecting to ovulate so early, it was only 20 days after the miscarriage. The doctor said to expect my next period 6-8 weeks after the bleeding started. After my first miscarriage AF came exactly 6 weeks after bleeding started. So now I am a little confused when I should expect AF, usually my lutal phase is usually 11-14 days long so if thats the case this month AF should show up like 4 1/2 weeks after the miscarriage not 6-8weeks?

Insurance Frustrations

2009-01-17T09:18:00.000-08:00

Health insurance is really frustrating, I do not understand how nothing is ever covered. The bills have started rolling in from the early HCG tests and from the ER visit in California. The ER in California wasn't in our "network", so nothing from that visit is covered, and they are only covering a small amount of the 4 HCG tests I had. I know this is probably just their "policy", but it really annoys me! I don't even want to think about what is yet to come with testing to figure out what (if anything) is causing the miscarriages, because I am sure insurance will cover nothing to do with that.

Here I go....

2009-01-11T15:31:00.000-08:00

I don't really know where to start, I am not much of a writer so I don't know how this blogging thing is going to work for me. I have been reading a handful of IF blogs the last couple of months and decided it was time to start one of my own. I guess I will start with a little bit about myself. I am 22 years old (will be 23 in Feb.) My husband is 26.

May 2007- we got married!!!

Oct 2007-we decided to get off of BC, we were ready for a baby

Jan 23 2008- BFP, we were so excited

Jan 30 2008 (5weeks, 3 days) started bleeding, went into the doctor, we saw nothing on the
ultrasound

March 12 2008- first day of cycle after miscarriage, started trying again

March 08- Nov 08- TTC again with no luck, started to get impatient was waiting until Jan 08 to go back into OB/GYN

Dec 11 2008- BFP again!!

Dec 15 2008- HCG 90

Dec 17 2008- HCG 125 (not quite doubling)

Dec 19 2008- HCG 151 (still not doubling, started to get worried)

Dec 22 2008- HCG 472 (Well it more than doubling, supposed to go in on Jan 5th for an ultrasound hopefully to see the heart beat. DH and I were going to be out of town from Dec 27th- Jan 1st so that was the soonest we could go it.)

Dec 31 2008 - started spotting

Jan 1 2009- woke up bleeding more, decided to go to the ER (we were out of town in California, and supposed to get on a plane and fly back later that day). My HCG was 2716 (not as high as it should have been), did an ultrasound and saw a gestational sac and yolk sac they said it looked about 5 weeks, 3 days (I should have been 7 weeks 4 days, but I ovulate about day 21 so maybe it is just a little behind?) After we left the ER I started cramping and bleeding much heavier.

Jan 2 2009- back at home went into my ob/gyns office did and ultrasound and didn't see anything. Miscarriage 7 weeks 5 days.

So now after having 2 miscarriages in a year we are waiting for my next cycle to start testing to try to figure out if there is something causing the miscarriages. Looks like I am back to trying to be patient...